Less than three weeks.

I have less than three weeks until my thesis has to be completed and in. I have been working on it like mad and am still very dissatisfied. Unfortunately, things have not gone according to plan. Plans were set with the idea that the fiance would be working. He hasn't been. Like... at all. It is very frustrating, since I cannot focus on my thesis at work and have to work when I am not in class just to get barely enough money to scrape by.

In other news, my bridesmaids have placed the orders for their dresses, and we are getting ideas together for the rest of the attire. I have sadly lost a bridesmaid due to occupational moving. She has a job in Japan and the company flies her over there. Unfortunately they are flying her out on the 24th with the rest of the big-city groups instead of the 1st when all the smaller cities fly over. Her orientation is the day of my wedding... well, the date of, which is actually a day before due to time changes and all. Very confusing.

So far I have thesis, Envr Chem and MIH. Envr Chem I have a medical incomplete to let me finish it slightly after the rest of the class does. And my chronic lack of good health (due to stress, according to the NP) has led me to be woefully behind in two classes and the one good class is actually history, which tends to be one of my worst subjects. I am good at this class for some reason, though. Especially since there are no quizzes and no dates to remember! : )

Thesis is happening, though annoying. I am working on sections that need severe help and improving them. I am also re-writing sections lost when I brain-glitched and forgot to save after writing them. *sigh* 2am is a horrid time to be writing about things, especially since I have not gotten all of my interviews. Which sucks.

I am also struck by melancholy time to time realizing that everyone seems to have a plan after graduation, and have either already secured good jobs or have gotten into a grad school. I have nothing, because I have been working on my thesis, my chem, my history, or my three jobs. I am always tired and exhausted, and am a rather sickly child the past two years.

Back to thesis. I will focus on that first, then other things... like my wedding. And a job.

~Nikki